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| So appearently people (and by people I mean Wendy, Jorge, and my girlfriend Melissa) still read this... so type here I shall.
I'm so psyched for Stadium Arcadium, the new Red Hot Chili Pepper CD. It comes out May 8th... OOOOOOOOH SNAP!
You know, I sure would h a t e to get that as a present.   **cough**cough** You know, for my birthday in June. **cough**cough**  OH WELL...
So I've been listening to the single, Dani California, a bunch... I've also been getting into Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Electric Six, Spinal Tap (the real music album they made is really good), and the White Stripes... and of course, Coheed and Cambria still rule my life... but for now the men of Co&Ca must share the spot atop my top list with the men of the Fellowship of the Slinky, the Red Hot Chili Peppers.
*sigh*  So dreamy.
Er, um, you didn't hear that.
And now an interesting song...
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Wait for-
Everything evil in you comes out
I'll stay when-
We'll only motivate sound
-instead sergeant
-Make for the table!
...In hopes that i won't be afraid again...
Call when enabled and send the leader out against...
I will.
Stage a reenactment in a false pretense
Exist
Inflict
Unworthy
Unconsciousness
Why debate when the action's suppressed?
-Then kill the acquitted.
Listen...
-to the sounds that remain in question-
...In hopes to solidify a truce amongst the children and
The jury that stands the verdict alive here among the dead
Evolve, Monstar, show me the things that I've never wanted done
Evolve, Monstar, do to me the things I never wanted done
I- I felt much better than this before
If they find out to avoid, then the accident's kept hidden away
But if they stay...
Blood hungry, cannibalistic, unfit family ties
In a series of knocks to the young girl's head's side.
Come write me a letter and paste it on my refrigerator door.
Inspected.
'Inspector, I think we've found something over here...'
I- I felt much better than this before
If they find out to avoid, then the accident's kept hidden away
But if they stay...
Jesse! Just come look at what your brother did! Here, he did away with me!
Jesse! Just come look at what your brother did! Here, he did away with me!
Stay until Wednesday and write me a child-like letter pretending
At war here in Thursday let's make this our last day at home on the Fence
Would you run? Would you run? Would you run down past the Fence?
Would you run? Would you run? Would you run down past the Fence?
And she screamed, "Claudio, dear Claudio, I wish- Goddamn it! We'll make it if you believe!"
And she screamed, "Claudio, dear Claudio, I wish- Goddamn it! We'll make it if you believe!" (K.B.I)
And she screamed, "Claudio, dear Claudio, I wish- Goddamn it! We'll make it if you believe!" (K.B.I)
- Everything Evil
--- Coheed & Cambria
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Anyway I'm tired. It's time for bed.
Goodnight all.
- Coreykins
>> I love you Melissa. << | | |
| My life is kind of spiraling out of control.
Wonderful... sarcasm.
It sucks when pain helps remind you it's not a nightmare. It sounds emo, but it's true. I looked out of my window, and the light off the snow hurt my eyes. And I stopped, and it upset me; this isn't a dream. My family is falling apart.
My mom's a cheating whore. I hate her. She ruined this entire family.
I saw her embrace the man she had the affair with.
I heard her calling him pet names.
I saw her go into an office room and lock the door with him.
And now she thinks I need to be sent to a psychiatrist,
Because I'm "lying" about it.
My dad may be going back to Dalton. He might stay here.
Selfish though --- I want him to stay. I don't want to live with my mom, but for online school I'll have to. So I at least want to be able to hang out with my dad as much as possible.
Thought in my dad's best interest --- He should go to Dalton. He's not abandoning me here, but he has nothing here. What could he do but go to friends house to friends house, surviving on part time? In Dalton at least he has family, and friends... he could get a job. Start over. He could move to Gainesville, and then I could see him during college.
I hate my mom.
I hate Ralph.
^^^^^^^^ That's her fucking boyfriend motherfucker.
I haven't had the time to post the full story. I will. It's a good read. Somebody make it a fucking movie script! Shit! Yes! It's a tradgedy. It'll sell. I'm still in a hotel room. When I get home, I might post it. You all would get a kick out of it. Really.
I hate my mom.
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She's a lying manipulative cheating whore. I hate her! I fucking cannot stand her. I'm not going to go peacefully with her. I may have to live there, I don't have to like living there. Fuck her. I hate her so much.
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What a bitch.
You all don't even know the HALF of it!
It's a long story.
She spent nights at this guys house because she was too drunk to come home.
Amazing, huh?
Seriously, what a bitch. What a whore.
I hate my mom.
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I need some love people. My family up here in Cincinnati are HER family. So they side with HER.
"You saw what?... She said what?... Oh, your mom wouldn't do that."
- My aunt
AMAZING
Why would I want to lie about my mom having an affair?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
!?!?!?!?!
!?!?!?!?!
I didn't hate her
I hate her NOW
I hate my mom.
It's all fucking bullshit.
I hope she's fucking happy. I hope she chokes
- Corey | | |
| Where have I been? On MySpace! Go to my profile @ www.MySpace.com/Poindexter ... To read my MySpace blog (which I update), go to http://blog.myspace.com/poindexter .... To listen to me on guitar, go to www.MySpace.com/CoreyPoindexter ... or to listen to my band that I play bass for go to www.MySpace.com/NeverenderMusic ....
That's where I am.
I don't post here often.... rarely ever. | | |
| This isn't a poem; This isn't being "emo"; This is me explaining myself to no one (because likely no one will read this). This is venting.
Sometimes I wish I could fix everyone's problems with a snap of my fingers (including my own). But I cannot. I can try to fix them through effort and time, and sometimes I succeed. I feel like I'm often a failure. When I let people down, it saddens me (especially when I care about that person). I feel that as a person, I try my best not to fail. I strain my efforts in all directions. This leads to more failures than success, but ultimately, not all failure. And this shows room for improvement. You cannot improve nothing, you can only build. Once the base is done, you can improve. Small strides is what I should be making, but I attempt big leaps. Sometimes I land it, sometimes my foot's too close to the edge on landing and I slip and bust my chin open.
I feel longing all the time. My heart sometimes hurts from it (though maybe it's in my head). I miss Melissa every day, but I don't want to tell her every day because I know she doesn't need the stress. That's all I'll say about that, because I know it would all just stress her out if she read this. (I don't want that to come off as sounding sarcastic or bitter. I am sincere in saying that. I really honestly just don't want her to be stressed anymore.)
I feel like I'm in the dark too often. There are things people don't tell me. And then when I find out it's like, "Wow, I could've tried to help." So I feel guilty. That's why I hate it when people don't tell me things because it's "more stress than I need". I'm hurting physically, yes, but I can still help.
I hate it when people lie to me, but we all hate that. It's worse than not telling someone something, it is saying "yes" when the truth is "no" (or vice versa). When you get caught in the lie, own up to it. Don't lie for a lie. I feel like things would be much better if everyone were truthful, honest, and up-front... about everything. I also hate it when people think I'm naive, or blind to the obvious.
I have slept a lot before so I didn't have to be awake, because I have too much on my plate... But those days are over... But I do need a hug. Badly.
In summary of the sections here;
I'm trying to better myself as a person. I'm trying to make changes for everyone (including myself). I soemtimes feel like people don't tell me things or lie to me to make me less stressed... But I'm not naive, so all that it's doing is stressing me more... I miss Melissa. I just need a hug. That's all.
I don't even remember what this was all about. I just started typing to vent.
Ignore all this. Please. | | |
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)..... Then my shitty iPod glitched and erased all my music off it ( FUCK MACINTOSH APPLE AND THEIR PRODUCTS 
).... So last night I bought copies of a bunch of CDs... 
